Lately I’ve been redreaming old dreams… or it seems like it, anyway. I haven’t had any long drawn out big dreams that take me a page to write about. But I’ve been remembering old school dreams, and band dreams, and house dreams and neighborhood dreams… but now I can’t put details to any of them.

Gads I haven’t had a good big dream in weeks now, and I’m kinda bummed about it! Maybe a medicare supplement would help my dreams come out… hrm.. well, maybe not. Well, I can hope for the dreams to come back. I’m pretty sure they will.

I wonder if recording my dreams, sometimes, kinda keeps them bouncing around my head and so new ones have a harder time coming through? Not sure, interesting throught.

I’ve been remembering only bits an pieces of dreams lately. I remember the image of a castle… in the twighlight, mostly dark, framed on the top of some close by mountains. It was very pretty. I remember either a scooter or a motorcycle… actually, it seems like it was a combination of both of them. It got good gas mileage, it was dark again, and I was wearing a helmet.

I remember buying a new house, maybe with Wilmington NC real estate. I even had a wee sex dream, something on the stairs, but then I don’t remember that much about it, either. And maybe if I did… I wouldn’t say!

Not bad dreams, just pieces of dreams.

As I was watching TV tonight, Robin Hood on BBS, I had a strange sense of Deja Vu. It’s not a dream in and of itself, but the Deja Vu was that I had dreamed watching this episode. His gang was tied up on the hill and he was going to be killed. And I swear I dreamed that in the past! And I’d just come home from an agility trial too. And I thought if I saw this after having dreamed it, then my dreams do come true!

But I think that a lot when I have Deja Vu and I don’t know if I really dreamed it or not. Maybe with this dream diary and keeping track, someday I will be able to verify a dream!

Instead, I want some Chicago travel… as that is where I was born, and it’s been so hot here.. but then at least it’s not humid like it is back east!

I didn’t dream last night… that I remember. Mainly because I didn’t really sleep, either. I was tossing and turning until about 1am. Finally got up and took something to help me sleep. It didn’t even really help, either.

I was hot, even with the swamp cooler on. I was restless. I was too tired, I think, to sleep. I don’t like it when I’m too tired to sleep.

I almost got up to watch some TV… but the thing I don’t like about watching TV after getting out of bed in the middle of the night is how bright the TV screen is. It hurts my eyes. Though our HDTV is nice, and we use HDMI to connect to the DVD player… so I like having nice DVD movies to watch. But in the middle of the night I’d rather have some dumb sitcom to watch instead of a movie and I don’t think I have anything good recorded.

Ugh.. hopefully tonight will be better.

There really isn’t a holiday close is there…? Well, the Fourth of July is coming along, I guess. But people don’t usually get personalized gifts for the 4th. Usually it’s birthdays or Christmas or other holidays. Either way… getting a personalized gift really is the way to go!

And getting a personalized story about your child, wouldn’t that be neat? I’d love to have one of my dogs. Actually, I should get one of some of my more intricate dreams. LOL that would be pretty cool too!

I have been out of town yet again this last weekend doing dog sports. I do so love it… even though this flyball tournament was 14 hours on Saturday, and 10 hours on Sunday. Still, it’s a rush and I am doing what I love and I am very happy with that.

I brought my notebook computer with me but I was too tired to find a wireless connection. The funniest part of my sleeping was when my friend talked in his sleep in the hotel room, and I answered him. We don’t even remember what we said now. But it was funny, sleep conversations!

I’ve had a dry spell lately with the dreams. Haven’t dreamed much, or I haven’t remembered them, anyway. I do remember having a dream about my ex… and in the dream I just wish I wasn’t married to him, I wish I was married to my current husband. It’s weird, and it is a recurring theme I have. I’m just very glad that I am married to the man I’m married to now!

I’m glad I don’t dream about being overweight… though I do need to lose a few pounds. About 10 or 15 now, really. 20 would be better. Gonna look into Leptovox and see if that’ll help me, I wonder if I can take it with the Zoloft I’m currently on? Hrm.

I’m doing dog sports this weekend… yet again, I’m actually sitting at the trial this weekend being kinda bored, and wishing I was home doing things around the house and zoning out. However, I’m having fun too, and meeting new people from Colorado which is nice.

I’m just so tired. The days are long, and going to dinner afterwards makes them longer. It’s 9:30 pm now and I’ll get up tomorrow at 6. Plus tomorrow is my birthday! Such fun. Oh well… maybe I’ll be able to go to my parents house after for a bit.

So haven’t been dreaming much, or remembering my dreams. Just going to agility, wearing my grubby t-shirts so I don’t get too messy, and hoping for more sleep in the next few weeks.

Oh I did remember another strange dream!

I was visiting my Uncle in California.. and he had a TV room downstairs. It had a regular tube TV, pre-digital, and he had a nice new 52″ plasma HDTV also. Well, I wanted to watch the HTDV of course, and when I was, he came along behind it and unplugged it and wrapped up the cord. Then my Dad reminded me that my Uncle didn’t want anyone to watch the HDTV because it used too much power. So that was okay.. I asked him if he had the regular TV hooked up to satellite, and he said yes, just a different satellite company.

Then I went into the kitchen and was playing with a PDA I had. And strangely various appliances started to turn on, it seemed just to annoy me and get me in trouble. The coffee machine would turn on and start to rattle, and when I tried to fix it I just made it worse. My Uncle would come up and wonder what I was doing, and get angry at me. Then some other little part of an appliance would come on, like a air conditioning compressor, and rattle, and my Uncle would come up again… happened about four or five times until I gave up and went into a sun room with my Mom.

It was odd! I do have an Uncle in California!

Lately I’ve been having some anxiety about posting my dreams in this blog… I get that way, not sure why, I think it’s part of my inability to be fully responsible and I have to put things off to feel… right, somehow.

So I haven’t posted a number of dreams I’ve had and, of course, have now forgotten them. But the one I just posted about last night was fun, and I do just need to do it more to get over this silly anxiety.

Maybe I’m just getting old, and lazy. I’ll be 41 with month. I need the best anti wrinkle cream I can find, pretty soon! But for now, my skin is doing okay. Hrmph.