I’ve only been remembering bits and pieces lately of dreams… and one of the bits I’ve remembered was looking through a discount bin at a dog store for light blue collars for the dogs. Light blue is the color of our flyball team. The collars were material and a bit weird. In real life, I wouldn’t like them, I don’t think. Maybe even in my dream I didn’t like them all that much. Not really sure. But they were a ribbed type fabric and I kept getting more and more out of the bin.. they were only $3.00 each, but when I had a pile of them they got really expensive!

I need to save money, not spend it on collars! And I need to lose wight, and get on some treadmills instead of eating pizza for lunch, like I did today. Ugh!

I’ve had a dry spell lately with the dreams. Haven’t dreamed much, or I haven’t remembered them, anyway. I do remember having a dream about my ex… and in the dream I just wish I wasn’t married to him, I wish I was married to my current husband. It’s weird, and it is a recurring theme I have. I’m just very glad that I am married to the man I’m married to now!

I’m glad I don’t dream about being overweight… though I do need to lose a few pounds. About 10 or 15 now, really. 20 would be better. Gonna look into Leptovox and see if that’ll help me, I wonder if I can take it with the Zoloft I’m currently on? Hrm.

I’m doing dog sports this weekend… yet again, I’m actually sitting at the trial this weekend being kinda bored, and wishing I was home doing things around the house and zoning out. However, I’m having fun too, and meeting new people from Colorado which is nice.

I’m just so tired. The days are long, and going to dinner afterwards makes them longer. It’s 9:30 pm now and I’ll get up tomorrow at 6. Plus tomorrow is my birthday! Such fun. Oh well… maybe I’ll be able to go to my parents house after for a bit.

So haven’t been dreaming much, or remembering my dreams. Just going to agility, wearing my grubby t-shirts so I don’t get too messy, and hoping for more sleep in the next few weeks.

Oh I did remember another strange dream!

I was visiting my Uncle in California.. and he had a TV room downstairs. It had a regular tube TV, pre-digital, and he had a nice new 52″ plasma HDTV also. Well, I wanted to watch the HTDV of course, and when I was, he came along behind it and unplugged it and wrapped up the cord. Then my Dad reminded me that my Uncle didn’t want anyone to watch the HDTV because it used too much power. So that was okay.. I asked him if he had the regular TV hooked up to satellite, and he said yes, just a different satellite company.

Then I went into the kitchen and was playing with a PDA I had. And strangely various appliances started to turn on, it seemed just to annoy me and get me in trouble. The coffee machine would turn on and start to rattle, and when I tried to fix it I just made it worse. My Uncle would come up and wonder what I was doing, and get angry at me. Then some other little part of an appliance would come on, like a air conditioning compressor, and rattle, and my Uncle would come up again… happened about four or five times until I gave up and went into a sun room with my Mom.

It was odd! I do have an Uncle in California!

Lately I’ve been having some anxiety about posting my dreams in this blog… I get that way, not sure why, I think it’s part of my inability to be fully responsible and I have to put things off to feel… right, somehow.

So I haven’t posted a number of dreams I’ve had and, of course, have now forgotten them. But the one I just posted about last night was fun, and I do just need to do it more to get over this silly anxiety.

Maybe I’m just getting old, and lazy. I’ll be 41 with month. I need the best anti wrinkle cream I can find, pretty soon! But for now, my skin is doing okay. Hrmph.

Another strange one.. but I seem to say that a lot. I dreamed that I was at some kind of camp, it seemed… and there was a test we had to do. We’d taken some sort of course and in order to complete it we had to take this test. There was more before this, but I don’t remember much of that now, just the test.

Me and a guy, cute, probably a partner but not sure who he was, had to go down and find a couple of big dragon like monsters under the ocean. After we jumped in and went down… I remember thinking about how long we’d be able to hold our breath, but since it’s a cartoon and fiction it doesn’t matter so we were able to stay under and not worry about breathing.

At first I went down with all my clothes on and it was too heavy, so they mostly came off and I was in some sort of swimming suit. As was he. We swam around and we found other teams who were looking for their monsters. Each team had two monsters to slay and pull out the hearts of to bring back. Oh, before we jumped in I told the teacher I didn’t think killing a creature was a good way to test and end a class, especially for a vegetarian (I am vegetarian) but he looked me right in the eye, dang he was cute, and said it’s what we had to do. So I shrugged and the monsters were bad anyway so went down to do it.

So without any skin lightening because it was pretty dark down there, we accidentally found one of the monsters but he was not ours, he was for another team. But he attacked us and what were we to do? So we defended ourselves and killed him and took his internal organ back to the rendezvous point and dumped the organ into a big chest that had other organs in it.

The team who was supposed to get that monster was pretty upset, but I think we worked things out. Then off me and my partner went to find our other monster… since we got one, even though it wasn’t our target, we were good and only had to get one more.

We found our main target and he was huge, and the nastiest of the monsters. There was a whole city down under the water in the ocean… and this monster was behind some sort of business front… and had a couple of cronies with him and they were watching a big screen TV. lol. He looked like a big slug and we needed to lure him out from behind this area to get him and kill him.

There was this huge rough sable collie there… as big as the monster himself, and this sweet collie laid down and took a nap, all relaxed. And Ron.. suddenly my partner was Ron from Harry Potter… stroked the collie until the monster, his cronies gone, started to come out too for some stroking. The monster was getting tired and fell asleep and came out of his little cave area, and Ron stroked him too, I think using TTouch. And the monster fell asleep.

So Ron was walking around then, crashing into things, looking for a spear or something with which to stab into the monster. No I didn’t feel any guilt but this was quite odd. Then one of the guys from the other team who we killed his monster, he was there with a spear, and was going to loan it to Ron. Then Harry, who had been waiting in the wings and needed to be in on this, came forward, and they all had spears and at the same time all three of them stabbed the monster in its sleep and killed it.

And there was victory. LOL… and then I woke up. What an odd dream.

I was going to title this post… grind or clench.. then thought that might sound a bit sexual, so decided against it. So this is a more conservative title, I think!

Anyway.. at night, I don’t grind my teeth, but I do clench them. Sometimes I wake up and not only are my teeth clenched, but my whole body is tense. It’s odd, and I don’t like it, and I think it is a sign of my fairly regularly stressed state that I live in. I really want to relax, but doing relaxation exercises also makes me anxious, and so I avoid them.

I tried an air humidifier when I sleep, but it didn’t seem to help. Maybe a purifier like IQAir would help.. but I dunno. I like the idea, especially with our dogs, the air in our house is probably pretty dirty.

But the humidifier didn’t really help me breathe at night and almost seemed like it gave me a headache, so I stopped using it. Plus, it was just so dang loud.

It’s hard to control one’s muscle and jaw tension when sleeping… I don’t know how, but I want to!

Oo maybe this is a good sign! The night before last I dreamed that my Husband and I were living in our house in a very rural area. It was a fun house… but for some reason we were in danger. Or we needed to clean things out… at first we were outside and there was a lion out there. Yeah, a real African lion, not a mountain lion. She was a female and we were a bit nervous of her, but she didn’t do anything to us.

Then she kinda morphed into a bear… and wandered away. But we were nervous and wanted to get rid of all our food and junk outside the house so the bear wouldn’t come back. There were these cupboards outside… narrow and tall, and we stored things in them. Of course this wasn’t strange in the dream. It was just normal. So we started pulling old food, butter, mostly storage type foods, and junk, out of them and sorting out what we’d keep and what we would throw away. Most of it we threw away.

With all that work we didn’t need any diet pills, we were working pretty hard. But it was neat to kinda see a house we could live in that was in a rural area! I want to move to a rural area soooo very badly! Someday.

When I was in Colorado I watched Harry Potter Movie Eight… well, at least in my dream! Saturday night I dreamed all night long, and it was fun, but annoying. I dreamed that so many people were frustrated with book seven, that JK actually wrote a book eight and they made a movie out of it.

Harry and Hermione and Ron were much older. And Harry and Hermione were together, and I got Ron. Woot! He was very handsome, much older, and his red hair was a bit curly and he was quite hot.

They didn’t have a cat tree for Crookshanks, though, and they could have used one. He’s pretty darn cool cat. I kinda wish he was something more than he had been.

I really miss the HP books, and I might start to listen to them again. I hope there will be another movie out, from book six, this Christmas!

Well… I’m going to Colorado tomorrow morning for a dog agility trial… USDAA, so I will be dreaming while traveling again. Maybe I’ll dream in the car, too, since I do hope to do some sleeping since I’m not doing any of the driving, which will be nice!

The worst part about sleeping in the car is my contacts.. I don’t like sleeping with them in, but I don’t like taking them out, either. Wish I could get Lasik, but I have an eye condition that prevents me from doing so. Keracatonus.

Oh well, I’ll figure something out. And hopefully record my dreams!